WOW, God is good. Blessing coming from babies

Placement.  Feb 21, 2014.  We got two little girls, sisters and it was super crazy.  We got the call for emergency placement on Thru night around 8 at night.  We thought they were bringing them that night but instead they brought them very early the next morning.  Lewis, was in the ER with bronchitis  and he was like yes, of course take the girls.  We were told that we would have 2 weeks to decide if we would keep them.  Who would not keep them.  They are great, not perfect, but with all they have been through it was ok. 

These two girls came.  Lewis was sick for the first 3 days then worked for the next 13 days.  It was so hard.  I thought many times, maybe I should not be doing this.  God, called the wrong person.  Then, almost every time I thought these thoughts the door bell would ring with another church woman bringing a meal or diapers or clothes.  I have found a wonderful friend now, that has done so much for me that I could never repay her.  I just have to pay it forward. 

I am super disappointed in our family members.  Parents not calling to check on us.  Not coming to see our new babies.  Almost nothing.  Sure there has been a text here and there.  But no REAL concern about how we are doing.  How our kids are doing?  How the girls are doing?  No real concern at all with us.  I don't believe anyone in our family even thinks we should be doing this.   But, at this point we just don't care.  They are all showing us how NOT to be when we are grandparents.  If my son or daughter said to me mom, I am feeling God leading me to do something, something so good as to foster or adopt children.  I would pray with them.  I would tell them trust your heart.  I would ask is there something I can do to help.  I would never leave them. 

BUT enough about that, God has sent one friend that has really stepped up and helped any way we have asked.  We feel the love from this person, Gods love through this person and I am forever grateful.  She stands alone.  I wish I could tell her how much this has truly meant to me.  I wish I was a better friend.  I wish I could think outside of myself and these 6 kids to do more for her.  I wish there as a way to show her just how much her just being there every time we have needed her.  NOT, only when we ask but asking us, volunteering her time.  I have never had someone care this much for me, well besides Lewis.  I have been blessed by her so much. 

TOO long

Man oh man, its been too long since I have posted on here.  I really should add it to my calendar to post every two week.  In fact, right now, I am doing this.

Disappointed but not out of Faith

Well, tonight was to be our orientation for our chance to add another one of Gods Children to our home.  Everything that could go wrong DID go wrong.  Started early with Lewis running the first time in like a year.  For the first time ever he pulled a back muscle, so bad that he had to go to the ER.  Poor Daddy.  Then Kyle, woke up with a bad tummy ache.  After taking a hot bath he ended up throwing up two times.  Then he was all better.  Even ate a whole sandwich and a bunch of chips.  Worked hard at school and was totally normal so I thought it was ok.  Then I found out about Lewis pulling his back.  He decided to leave work and go to the ER around 3.  It was not looking good at this time.  My heart sank.  To top it all off I could NOT find my wallet.  I never lose my wallet.  I looked every where.  Even drove to the camper to see if it was left there by mistake.  I looked EVERYWHERE.  All the bags, through the car and Truck.  So frustrating.  Could not find it!!!!!  Finally found it in our camping shoe bucket and the very bottom...  I was not happy.

Last straw,  we cant find Lewis's copy of his birth certif.  I know where I though it would be but I guess it was not there.  We will find that soon.

We had to call and let them know what happened.....

God is GOOD.  The director lives out over here by us and she said that they would just come to me and get the orientation done.   I cant BELIEVE she is going to come to us.  This will be SO much easier.  They can meet my wonderful kids.  See how great our home is for children.  See how much we want to love another little girl.  I am through the roof with excitement.  Next Thursday at 9:30AM.  I am so excited and Faithful that this is Gods Hands.  I think He is making the time line up.  Some really bad stuff would have HAD to happen for us to not go.  So I am counting my blessing.

Lewis and I talked about it for a bit tonight.  He said, he was on board at first.  Like yeah, we can do it. Now, I believe God has done His work on Lewis.  He said, with this look in his eye, that I only see at certain times.  So sweet and so strong.  It was like Faith on Red Bull all that just from his amazing eyes. He said I am actually really excited and a little disappointed that we cant make the orientation tonight.

I am still trusting that God will grow our family and he will intrust us with his children that need a forever family.  We are ready to give a child a great mom and dad.  Plus, bonus the best brothers and sister ever.  God is so good.  I am trusting and will follow his path.  We love you, Jesus.   Please, keep growing our hearts to follow your path.  Please keep growing our families hearts and our friends.  I am so thankful for all of them.  We have told most of our families now and they are all excited for us, they think we are a little crazy, I think we are a little crazy also.  But can not stop the feeling that we are being called for His glory.

Thanks,
Tracie Baker

Praying and Following...

WOW, this is something. We already have 4 wonderful kids. Really God you pick us??? These thoughts rushed through me. We have prayed about this so much and God keeps hammering it home. Foster and adding more of His children to our home. Raising more children for His kingdom. You know we are not the high and mighty people. We love the Lord with all our hearts, but we are sinners. So why call us? How do we know he is calling us?

There are several, here are just a couple.

Little things. Like telling Jen in the hall at church to pray for an answer one way or another and our sweet paster comes out and hugs me right after I told her. Then going into service and writing out our prayer request and asking for guidance. I said there is a fire in my heart that will not go away. Tom Allen then in that service talked about how God speaks to us. He then went to say those same words. That Fire in your heart is put there by God...

This fire started many many years ago and has came up and went away many times in our 15 years of marriage. Thankfully, Lewis is right on board. He is exactly looking a 15 passenger vans so we have the room to carry all our babies. We thought when we had problems getting pregnant that we would just adopt, it would be ok. Then we were blessed with twins not just any twins MY twins. They are one of the biggest blessings. So then we had another boy Gods plan is perfect in every way... We thought again, we will adopt a little girl. Then we had our little girl. Our house was full and complete or so I thought.  I KNEW in my heart I would not have any more natural kids. Even though our children are Perfect in every way.  I knew I was being called to something more.

We went camping this past weekend.  Talk about Fostering all the way home trying to figure out some of the details.  Well Sunday night I was cleaning up listening to KSBJ and the program was about What you ask.  Yes, fostering and adopting.  We have only listened to this program like 4 times this year.  Its never once been about this topic.  Wow, for me to be in the camper, doing dishes, alone meaning without crazy kids being loud, at the right time and right place.  It was like God was speaking through these people, my heart is opened more.

Now, the time has come. We have meet so many wonderful families that have adopted such wonderful kids. They have completed their families. We are drawn to the stories and we Long for a story of our own. Excited to see where God is leading us. We will follow with open hearts and open minds. We see up to 2 more girls, or boy girl at our dinner table. Laughing and crying right along with us. Two more to love and raise for His glory.

I pray God touches both of our hearts in ways that we can not deny. I pray that God uses His Word to speak to us and guide us to his will.  I pray His will is done.  I want to walk down His path not my own. Its not going to be easy, we totally understand this. But we can do all things Through Him.

Last, I pray for our families that will be touched by this. I Pray that there Hearts are also opened. I also pray for our friends. We only have a few really close ones that I can call on. I pray that they will also understand and approach us with open God filled hearts. This road is just about to start and I am SUPER excited.

We will follow Him. I know he already has our children picked and are preparing them for us right now. I am so excited to see what he has in store for us.

First meeting is with Lutheran Social Services at 6:30 on this Thursday, Sept 5th.  Please join me in praying for our future children and our 4 little ones now.